It might be over soon
A few days ago, I was listening to Bon Iver's newest album (well actually it's old now) and the song 22 (over soon) came on. I have probably listened to this song about 20 times in the past but this time it stopped me in my tracks. The song hit me in all my feels.
Noah, my oldest son, started kindergarten today. It's a strange feeling to spend so much time with your child and worrying if you are raising him correctly. It is strange because everything you do is with hopes that the training he gets at home will help him when he's not. The crazy thing about it is that you don't really fully comprehend if he is retaining all the life lessons. I mean, we kind of do but who knows what will happen when he gets on the bus and heads to school.
As a parent you worry about a lot when you let your oldest go off to school. Will he be kind to others? Will he be liked by others? Will he listen to his teacher? What is he learning in school? How will other kids impact how he behaves? Will he miss me?
I mean, for 5 years, my wife and I have been his everything. Then today, we weren't. It was a good reminder that stages in life, like prior to today, might be over soon.
I have spent the month of August giving Noah and his siblings a little extra love, a little more of my attention and made sure that we did everything a 5 year old would want to do.
On Friday, Noah asked to go to lunch with just me. He wanted to grab burgers, give fist bumps and just have my complete attention. So, we did.